The war / Marguerite Duras

We learn about the hardships encountered along the way through Marguerite's words following World War II. Nursing her dying husband through this time is an emotionally exhausting experience for her. As if she wrote parts separate from each other, her story is broken up into different parts and thoughts. It was as if she was writing a diary, recounting the most vivid times of her life. There is a chance that she may have forgotten details like journaling due to the trauma and extreme emotions. As she was terrified of hearing the result, her one traumatic experience would be not knowing if her husband was alive or dead. This scenario would completely destroy me if I allowed myself to think about what if. I have a parent in the military so I had to learn from a young age o not to get caught up in the what if. One of her most powerful lines was, "You don't exist anymore compared to this waiting. You see more images in your head than all the roads in Germany. Machine gun blasts inside your head every minute. It's still there, the bullets won't kill you." Her quote illustrates her complete confusion and fear. There were so many possibilities for her, and she was worried sick.